"Open up my head and let me out"

Some interesting music is floating around in my head. It's funny, because the 2 songs that keep playing back and forth show 2 polar opposites in way of emotion. I'm sort of in a a weird place like that though; just riding the seesaw, back and forth and up and down. Take a peek!

Everytime it rains I listen to the sky
And wonder what's so great about sunshine
Everybody lives and everybody dies
And no one's gonna love you like I do

When it was getting dark
I didn't need a match
I never needed light to see you
You thought I disappeared
But I was always here
I could never get that far from you

Though I misunderstand
And been misunderstood
So love me 'cause you can
And not because you should

Everytime it rains
I know it's good to be alive
Everytime it rains
I know I'm trying to survive

Take it as it comes
And take me as I am
I never was a good imposter
But I know how to dream
And don't know where I stand
I'm willing to admit I try too hard
Stop playing with my heart
I'm waiting by the phone
Afraid to be myself
Afraid to be alone

Everytime it rains
I know it's good to be alive
Everytime it rains
I know I'm trying to survive
And everytime it rains
I'm gonna hide myself inside

I know it's good to be alive
I know it's good to be alive
I know it's good to be alive

Everytime it rains
I know it's good to be alive
Everytime it rains
I know I'm trying to survive

(Every Time it Rains - CharMar)

STEEL (CharMar)

The lost and insincere
They think I need to hear what's in their empty eyes, eyes, eyes
We're few and far between
We've hardly been serene
But stand up to their lies, lies, lies

We are steel
We don't feel anything at all

He took me in arms
But then he squeezed too hard
He wouldn't let me breathe, breathe, breathe
It's been too many years
I've hurt too many times
To give up everything, thing, thing

I am steel
I don't feel anything at all

The way I've been confused
The way that I've been used
And spit out on your dime
And still you lead me on
And still you tear me down
And say it's in my mind

Well I've seen hell and back
I've hidden in the dark
With no one there at all, all, all
I've scraped us back to life
I've laced up both my boots
So try and twist the knife, knife, knife

I am steel
I don't feel anything at all
We are steel
We don't feel anything at all
We don't feel anything at all
Anything at all
Anything at all
Anything at ahhhhhhh

I'd write more tonight, but long nails on flat keyboard is proving a bit frustrating. Sometimes music is the better expression. Yes, I am steel... On my way to the steel capital of the nation and I can't wait to leave.